Broken

 There are days when I feel so sad and cry a lot. Recently these days are nearly everyday.

Being away from Qahtan is really hurting me so much. I want to see his beautiful little face in front of me every single day. I want to be able to hold his hand and run, chase him round in circles and watch him giggle.

 Qahtan, you are my soul. You are the best of the best in my life. You are my everything, my blood, my breath, my strength to go on. Habibi every moment we are apart is tearing me apart.

 Ya Rabbi, I miss my son.

2 years, 5 months and 2 days.................... I need my son in my arms.

Cancer Tests. Missing you Qahtani.

Bismillah Ar Rahman Ar Rehem - In The Name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

As salam alaikum wa Rahmatullah wa Barakatu.


Dearest habibi Qahtani.

Mama has been to hospital again for cancer tests. i was feeling unwell before i had surgery and i was told to go back to hospital again for cancer tests because the Dr found a lump.
 InshaAllah in a week to 10 days i will have the results. beithinAllah what ever the results are i have the strength and the chance to be alive to watch you grow infront of my eyes.


Qahtan my sweet child. You are the apple of my eyes, my soul, my happiness, the reason i wake up every morning to fight another day. I wish your here with me so i can hug you tight and hold you close. Am tired but for you ya habibi, i keep trying.

hubbek habibi...love you more than anything...may Allah put this love in your heart every single day so that when we meet you know your mama is near.

Allah be with you sweetness. Allah bless you and protect you from all harms way.
mwaaaaaaaaaaaaaah mwaaaaaaah mwaaaaaaah.

Post surgery update

As Salam alaikum,

 11 days post surgery, had the stitches of all 4 incisions removed with a little pain due to stitches being dry and stuck to my skin. Alhamdulillah kul Hal. InshaAllah I shall be back at work soon

Thank you to all who have visited, sent gifts and kept duaa for me. I appreciate them very much.






Qahtan, mama is feeling better...soon inshaAllah I will come home to visit you.
Love you habibi roohi
Mwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
Oxo

1 week post op

As salam alaikum,

 Alhamdulillah wa shukrlillah, im up and slowly moving about.

Id like to thank those who came to visit me in hospital, time and time again its the same people who stand by your side through thick and thin...Allah yebarakfeekum ameen. Thanks to the people who left comments here on the blog and all of you who have stopped by for a quick read.

BeithinAllah soon i shall be up and about...back to work.









 Qahtan habibi, mama is thinking about you very much. i wish in these days you are by my side so i can watch you run and play while i recover. Allah is with you habibi. inshaAllah ur happy and smiling. Miss you my precious boy.  big hugs and kisses oxoxoxoxo

In hospital post op

Salam alaikum habibi Qahtan.

I had my operation. I'm still in hospital resting & taking medicine. Mr Ali my surgeon said my surgery was good. It took 1 hr & 15 mins.

The nurses here were asking about you so I showed them your pictures. They said God bless you, your a cute boy.



I will write again soon.
Love you much habibi Wuqu Nunu.
Oxo meah