The fitrah of our hearts.

The fitrah of our hearts.

Friday, 4 April 2014

You are the reason !!

   Qahtan My Soul, 

You brought me calm that flew away,
You my child are the very reason I breath.

Qahtan, I love you my baby boy!!
I await the day to see you rise above all & lead with justice, love, peace & wisdom.  That day in sha Allah will be soon. 

You my dear child are more precious than gold & forever my heart you shall hold. 

Love always
Your Mama 


Wednesday, 19 March 2014

Silence has been broken


As Salam alaikum. 

All praise be to Allah, Qahtan & I shared a few short words on the phone a few nights ago. He is a very busy little boy playing, shouting & enjoying his time with his cousins mashaAllah. 

Allah bless Qahtan & protect him always. 

Monday, 17 February 2014

Two Months of No Communication.

Bismillah Ar Rahman Ar Rehem - In The Name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

 Today marks 2 months and 2 days of no news about Qahtan.

I am making a public note of this so the world can see.  I have sent a message asking of Qahtan on 9th Feb 2014, it was read and ignored. I have proof of this message on my mobile phone and back up for as and when it is needed as proof.

As of this day forth, i shall let this situation be dealt with  by a professional team because i have the right in Islam to know of my son's health, well being and have full communication with him plus visitation with him as per the papers that were issued to me upon the completion of the custody case.

As salam alaikum.
Umm Qahtan

Thursday, 16 January 2014

Not an update that brings good news


 I have in all honesty not written anything here in a very long time because there has not been a need to but now yet again there is a need due to the very simple reason that my communication with Qahtan ( my son,) has been cut off for more than two weeks.

Yes Qahtan has yet again been sent to buraimi some 1000 plus km away from his father. For which reason I do not comprehend because Qahtan is suppose to be in custody of his father not separated for months at a time.


 According to my ex husband I have no right to type Qahtan's full name online on this blog because I am insulting his whole tribe in salalah.

Please note further that their tribe name also has origins in ISRAEL AND AMERICA... So if I am insulting anyone by putting my son's full name online then I would also like to hear from the thousands in America and Israel as to how I am insulting them also.

I have asked for legal documentation stating from an Omani or Bahraini court that I am not allowed to type my son's full name online but I was told that I am arguing and majnoon ( mental / possessed by a evil spirit known as jinn in Arabic language.)   Yes I do have full proof of everything that I am saying. I keep every message that I type when asking about my son and also replies sent to me.

  There is only so much patience people can have in this life. I have been away from my son for 3 years and 1 months.. AND TRUST ME WHEN I SAY I AM NOT HAPPY ABOUT BEING AWAY FROM MY CHILD WHO IS ONLY 4 YEARS OLD. Islamic laws clearly state that a child of young age should be with his/her mother until the age of 8. At which age the child will be asked by a sharia judge as to whom the child wishes to live with.

 I shall keep writing here and talking from my heart about OUR SON Qahtan until there is a mutual and respectable understanding that Qahtan also has family here in Bahrain and in U.K as I his mother am from the U.K and that is where my extended family live.

 In recent months there was a death in my mother's family. The person who passed away was my GrandFather  who never got the chance to see his Great Grand Child Qahtan before dying.  His only view of Qahtan was on my Mother's mobile/cell phone & his words to my mother were ' he is a beautiful child.' 

                         Our child is Bi Racial, Multi National by blood and it is in Qahtan's best interests that he knows who ALL of his family are from Both sides of his parents.

P.s I like to further state publically that yes I know I am being watched / stalked online. My business account on linked is constantly checked by my ex husband and other people with fake names from fake accounts that I do not know in person or from online. 

Friday, 3 May 2013


 There are days when I feel so sad and cry a lot. Recently these days are nearly everyday.

Being away from Qahtan is really hurting me so much. I want to see his beautiful little face in front of me every single day. I want to be able to hold his hand and run, chase him round in circles and watch him giggle.

 Qahtan, you are my soul. You are the best of the best in my life. You are my everything, my blood, my breath, my strength to go on. Habibi every moment we are apart is tearing me apart.

 Ya Rabbi, I miss my son.

2 years, 5 months and 2 days.................... I need my son in my arms.